Nate has had more freedom since he’s been in his sober living home for a few months. I’ve missed him so much. I thought about him all day.
I wasn’t expecting any visitors today, but I’m glad he came. He entered my room. He set up a movie. We were talking and cuddling and laughing for a while. Then he gets silent and he stares into my eyes as we are laying face to face and he caresses my arm.
Him: you’re different.
Me: what do you mean? How so?
Him: you just are. I can’t explain it.
He runs his hands along my cheeks and jaw; grabs me and kisses me ever so softly. He’s running his hands through my hair. I pull away.
Me: you look good. I’ve missed you.
Him: I’ve missed you too.
We kiss and it intensified by 1000. We kissed for what seemed like forever. He slowly moved his hands along my whole body.
Him: is this okay?
He unhooked my bra and slid it off of me. Every movement and touch was delicate; like he was undressing a flower. He turned over on top of me and kissed my lips, forehead, neck, shoulders.. Breasts. He inched down slowly and found that sweet spot between my legs and damn near drove me out of my mind. I leaned up and grabbed him and kissed him. His lips were drenched of me and it taste so sweet.
He sat up and pulled my dress over my head and I laid him on his back.
I made my way down his torso and he let me take control with my mouth. Deep, hard, and sensual. He pulled me up on top of him and in one swift movement, he entered me. I gasped for air, for it was pleasurable and painful. Something I was so used to before entered me as something so unfamiliar.
Him: are you okay?
Me: yes.. It just hurt a little.
Him: just say when.
He stilled inside of me and proceeded to kiss me. After a moment I whispered “I’m ready”
He slowly moved inside me and our bodies were completely in sync. We couldn’t keep our lips off each other. He then rolled over on top of me, his body pressed against mine, and thrust hard and deep. He growled and I couldn’t help but cry out and I didn’t care who heard. I clawed at his back for dear life, for he showed no mercy. The love we were making was so different from anything we’ve ever done. It was almost as if for a moment, the icy heart I so much gotten used to was melting away. I felt something for the first time in a long time and tears streamed down my face.. He wiped them away and smothered me in a kiss.
I rolled over on top of him and leaned back so one hand rested on his thigh and my other played with my clit while he pushed further and further. I felt myself cuming and I begged him to cum with me. He pulled me down to him and wrapped his arms around me and thrust hard and fast.. Just how he knows to do when I’m climaxing and I came with full force and he came inside me. Our bodies went limp and he held me for a long while and just kissed me.
We rolled over and just laid silent in each other’s arms. 5pm came and he had to get back to the house. As he packed his things, I felt the glacier in my chest reforming.
Him: I wish I didn’t have to go.
Me: me too.
I sat on the bed and he stood between my legs and kissed my forehead.
Him: I love you
Me: I love you.
I walked him to the door. We kissed. Promised to call each other, and he disappeared.